just when I'd thought. that I'd left it. all behind. left in the past. gone for good - this time. and then it hits me. so hard again. and these shoulders. can't take this weight - not again. no matter how hard I try I just. can't escape the past. that haunts. me with shame. am i stained by my own hands? am i the only - one left to blame? you left me all alone. in my time of need. when i needed you most. all I found. was your greed. the test. of time. the pain. inside. tears me apart. and what is left. a cold. empty broken heart. i should have known. right - right from the start. i gave you my all. with. nothing in return. ou set my soul on fire. and watched. as it burned. one thousand lies. one thousand lies. this pain. tears me apart. so lost. lost and betrayed. somehow. i'll find my way. somehow - i'll find my way.